I
sincerely hope your threat of rape was not
serious. There is never an excuse for rape.
You
are wise to decide against sex and therefore
avoid all the problems of unwanted pregnancy
and disease. But you still have the problem
of sexual desire to cope with and this is
very normal.
Masturbation
relieves sexual tension and can do you no
harm. It will harm nobody else, either. There
are many myths about masturbation leading
to blindness and even madness. They are not
true. Go ahead.